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其實我很久沒有PO營會心得文了                                                  
不是沒有收穫                                                                   
而是大部分營會結束後我總覺得纍纍的                                             
好像結束了一件事情                                                             
但是這一次我卻很享受在營會的過程中                                             
                                                                               
我在確定加入北區中學門徒營當輔導之前                                           
我更確定一件事情                                                               
就是我信仰裡的某些特質在流失                                                   
但我不知道是什麼                                                               
雖然我在大學中也服事得很愉快 很感恩                                            
但總有股淡淡的無力感與憂傷 揮之不去                                            
                                                                               
我並沒有預料到我在北中門能找到答案                                             
就像是神親自向我說話一樣                            

在營期中                                                                      
神一次一次讓我看見                                                             
祂的溫柔                                                                       
同心的力量                                                                     
單純信心的寶貴                                                                 
喜樂的泉源                                                                     
義人祈禱所發的力量是大的                                                       
祂的同在                                                                       
聖靈的引導 使人知罪...                                                         
                                                                               
這些莫過是最基本的信仰元素                                                     
但是大學的忙碌生活                                                             
服事的壓力 思慮                                                                
我竟然讓這些元素慢慢流失                                                       
                                                                               
尤其我必須說一句                                                               
在我最主要服事的團體                                                           
最忠心服事的團體當中                                                           
我也渴望看到這些見證                          

聖經的背景 註釋                                                               
神學的思辯                                                                     
都很棒 而且我認為是必要的                                                      
                                                                               
但是一節經文加上十條註釋                                                       
卻因自以為站在山峰感到不喜樂 孤獨                                              
絕對是強於一節經文加上一個生命見證                                             
                                                                               
若是過多的思考 思辯 研究                                                       
會影響我們單單的來到耶穌腳前                                                   
用單純的信心用生命活出經文                                                     
讓人看見我們的生命不同                                                         
                                                                               
那我們是否該停下我們的腳步                                                     
檢視我們認識的每一條神的話                                                     
到底是存在我們的生命中                                                         
還是我們的頭腦中                             

我越來越覺得                                                                  
認識經文跟活出經文                                                             
是兩條相輔相陳 卻又截然不同的道路                                              
聖經的知識再多                                                                 
也不能保證我們去經歷神 認識神自己                                              
不然那些無神論的聖經研究者早就變成神學家了                                     
                                                                               
這跟                                                                           
  「我若能說萬人的方言，並天使的話與，卻沒有愛，我就成了鳴的鑼，響的鈸一般。」 
  「我若有先知講道之能，也明白各樣的奧祕，各樣的知識，而且有全備的信，叫我     
    能夠移山，卻沒有愛，我就算不得甚麼。」                                     
  「我若將所有的賙濟窮人，又捨己身叫人焚燒，卻沒有愛，仍然與我無益。」         
基本上是一樣的道理                                                             
會說方言會講道很有信心很會賙濟窮人這些都很好                                   
但是若是沒有愛就變成無用之物了                 

營會中                                                                        
我一次一次看見學弟和輔導                                                       
用生命活出上帝的愛                                                             
他們愛學弟 愛學生                                                              
很多人根本就只是初信一年半載                                                   
聖經目錄不會 聖經分類搞不清楚 別說能背主禱文了                                 
但是他們卻用他們所僅有的聖經知識                                               
盡最大的力量活出基督的愛                                                       
這才具有觸摸人心的能力                                                         
                                                                               
我多麼多麼渴望                                                                 
在我身邊的人身上常常看見神                                                     
而不只是感覺這人聖經很熟 有神學頭腦                                            
希望與大家一起努力                                                             
我們都還在學習的路上～                                                         
在人看來不可能的                                                               
在神凡事都能：）